I don’t care that I’m one of ur closest friends or that u care for me very much. That isn’t what I want, I want so much more, I want the kisses, the whispered I love you’s,the sneak attack hugs, holding hands in the hallway. I always think I’m over u then I fall all over again, I dunno why, maybe bc I feel safe around you, comfortable? There is always someone else u like and I always think its me and I work at it and u finally spill and my heart breaks and then u ask if its u that I like and I tell u and you get all sympathetic and treat me with pity. That only makes it worse. If I could do what Snow White did in Once Upon A Time and forget u I would. Nothing is worth this pain everytime. Stop trying to make me feel better, like I’m not stupid for liking u again. I know inside u wish it would stop and we could just be friends. I wish we could too. I wish this would stop, I could see u like any other guy and we would be done with this. It took us 2yrs to get back to the level of friendship we had before my last confession and I can’t go through another 2 yrs like that. I always fuck things up. If I could just be Like everyone else maybe this would be easier. Make me a carbon copy, sometimes following the crowd and being oblivious is better than everything that comes with living a full life.